7 Day Post Challenge

Being consistent is probably one of the biggest challenges for me in my life. I have every intention of sticking with something, whether it be exercise, writing, bedtime routines. But life happens and kids happen and rather then push through and continue my routines I let it all get in the way. I tell myself I’ll get back to it tomorrow and then tomorrow turns into next week and next month and before I know it I’m starting all over

AGAIN.

That is definitely my biggest flaw to date.

I’ve been on the “tomorrow diet” for years. 

I can’t even tell you the last time I really got a great workout in. 

I talk about all the things I want in life daily, but I keep myself from pushing forward and actually committing to making them all become a reality. 

But the scary reality of it all is that tomorrow might never come. And if it doesn’t…

Will I truly be proud of the life I lived?

Will I feel fulfilled?

Will my kids be able to look back and remember a strong woman who chased her dreams?

Right now as I’m writing this, I feel like the answer would be no. 

I’ve lived ON this Earth. I’ve been kind. I’ve made memories. But I feel like I have yet to live IN this World. My fears constantly hold me back. I have an extreme  fear of success. I’m so afraid that if I do chase after any dream, I will become completely overwhelmed in it and have no time for the thing that is most important to me in the entire world…FAMILY.  And not to mention the fear of just getting started. Being new at something. Feeling like you have no clue. I let that get the best of me. I want to be great at something before even trying it. And that’s just not how this world works. 

9 times out of 10 the things that we are so great at, we failed at in the beginning. 

The one thing in this world that I can confidently say I’m good at, is being a mom. I will always put my children’s needs before my own. Unless its the last piece of cake. Then I’m selfish. 😉 

In all seriousness though, I can confidently say that I am a good mom. BUT that doesn’t mean I didn’t fail in the beginning. Hell I probably fail at something every day in the parenting department. But that’s the name of the game. We fail so we can learn. We learn so we can do better. But we have to be consistent. 

I guess the reason I’ve been a consistent mother is because  I never really felt like I had a choice in that. If parenting got too hard for me or too time consuming I wasn’t just going to quit. 

So why is it so easy for me to quit at everything else? 

A few years ago my good friend and I decided to go into the cake decorating business. Just a small little side hustle. Nothing extravagant. But as we got better, we got busier. And it wasn’t always easy. We had little ones running around and ruling the house as we slaved over the stove. Making the buttercream icing and fondant figurines. We spent hours on Saturday mornings waiting around for cakes to be picked up or driving around to deliver them. And the second it felt a little too overwhelming I threw in the towel. 

I mean in my defense. It really is a time consuming job. Hours and hours on end creating tiny little details. We couldn’t get the proper licensing to cook out of our homes in our state. I lived in a house with a very small kitchen and 3 other humans living there. It was tough. It was tight. And the kitchen was ALWAYS a mess. But instead of fighting for it. Looking into licensing more. saving money to rent a space. taking classes to learn more. I backed out. I walked away. And now, I’m kind of starting to miss it.

I’m not sure if I would say that being a cake decorator is a huge dream of mine. Or that I regret walking away.

I think it was a choice that was best for me and my family at that time. But still, I walked away.

I wasn’t consistent.

And it didn’t lead me anywhere.

In 2016 I gifted myself a nutritional cleansing system for Christmas. I had gained so much weight from my third pregnancy and was finally starting to feel defeated in my own body. I started the program promptly on January 1st and by the 30th I was feeling AMAZING! Inches and pounds were flying off! So naturally I started sharing my progress with the world. And learned a little bit more about the company and what they stand for. I started sharing the products with others and helping them get started. I had no intention of making any kind of career or money from it, I was just genuinely feeling great and wanting to share it with the world. 

Then I got my first commission from my share. And then another. Eventually I was ALMOST making enough that I was able to pay for my months supply of product from what I was selling. 

But a couple months into it, I just backed off. 

I started to question my ability to help people. Even though every time I got a message from a customer about how great they felt it made me literally feel like I could help change the entire world. I still questioned it though. I’ve never studied fitness or health. I’m no expert. And I even found myself inhaling donuts or fried foods all while “teaching” others to stay on track. 

I started to doubt myself so badly, that I stopped checking in with people all together. And gained back all of my weight. 

And I don’t even really have a reason for it. 

I could blame it on the stress of the move. But I still had a choice every day. I could have stayed consistent. I could have gotten on those team calls. I could have eaten the donut, and moved on. But I fell off track. I stopped. I stopped sharing. I stopped caring. And now here I am 20 lbs heavier. Feeling tired. And needing to Restart. AGAIN. 

Last year. I got my Real Estate License. And though I just barely dipped my toes in the water with that one. I’ve already backed out. 

I do feel like backing out of that career was a little more justifiable for me at this point in my life though. As a SAHM, the “bus” driver for my kids to and from school and having a 3 year old. I just couldn’t commit to the time I needed to really build that career. I’ll leave that one in my back pocket for now. 😉 

But anyway. Enough Rambling. My point is. I have had many different opportunities to be successful in something that I love. I just have that issue with commitment. 

Its a wonder I’ve been married for 10+ year now. 

But just because I didn’t push for it then, doesn’t mean I can’t push for it now. 

It all starts at the top. Its a mental thing.   

As Henry Ford once said “Whether you think you can or you think you can’t, you’re right” 

When the cake business started getting a little busier I felt confident. I knew I could do big things with it. I wanted more. I told myself I would keep going, so I did. But then I felt overwhelmed and I told myself to quit so I did. It was all mental. 

Same with the nutritional system. 

And now here I am with this blog. 

I could let this just be a wasted space on the internet. Or I can practice that consistency and tell myself every day to get up and work on it. 

It is up to me. 

One of my many “dreams” is to write a book. And I know that the best and only way to write a book is to just write. Write every thought you have. Jumble it all together. Collect your thoughts. And create a masterpiece. But the only way to get better at writing is…

to write. 

Sooo..I’m challenging myself to a 7 day post challenge. I have a list of blog post ideas. I’ve had it sitting on my phone for weeks. I just haven’t made the time for it. 

But I am ready to commit to something again. To excel in it. I am ready to write and to share. To get better at telling my stories and experiences with the world. That is, after all, why I started this blog in the first place 🙂 

So here is my list of upcoming posts to watch out for! 

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1. Thanksgiving Centerpieces 
2. Walmart grocery pick up 
3. 10 thing you don’t know about me 
4.  Trending Teen Christmas gift ideas
5. Trending Toddler Christmas Gift idea 
6. Dining Room Makeover  
7. Epic Christmas Organization/Schedule